Friday, 17 May 2013

A letter to a friend II

A letter to a friend is dedicated to Ms Firah & Ms Nurul that went back to Peninsular after all these years. Here to you "a letter to a friend II".

" 'We'll be friends forever, won't we, Pooh?' asked Piglet. 'Even longer' Pooh answered" - A.A Milne, Winnie the Pooh

Nurul San~

Among all people, you are the one that know me the longest. We were destined to walk together. To walk the life path as a student together. We've known each other for nearly 2 decades now, to be specific, 17 years.

We studied together at the same primary school, and back then we were best friend too. And together with Miss Dg we were a triad made of "telur", "ayam" and "itik". You are one of the earlier person that accepted me as I am and I am really grateful for that. My childhood won't be the same without you and Dyg. *Hug*
Then we separated when you went away for another school during secondary school time. I still remember writing you letter, but being a lazy bum at that time, I broke the chain after one or two letters and we totally lost contact after that. *Sorry* (Kalau ko masi ingat lah, hehe)

Then, our next encounter was during matriculation time. But we haven't talk to each other yet that time. We crossed each other path for once or twice, and I recognised you instantly, but being a shy shy cat,  I didn't tegur you. Lama tidak jumpa kan, takut tidak kena ingat ni. ;p

We truly become reconciled again at UMS. We took the same course and suffered for a few years together. You are cool and sporting gila. You guys are the best neighbor that I ever had. Aisey. Hehe. Sorry for the time that I whined about my love life to you guys. Sorry~ Mesti kamu stress kalau saya datang bilik kamu masa tu tu kan. Hee. Thanks for being a good listener whenever I had trouble and feels like sharing. Thanks for not judging me for my mistakes.

I love hanging out with you guys especially when you are around, why? Cos you are the pe-meriah suasana and also event- planner. So the activities won't be boring without you. But, sorry for not being around for most of the time juga. During first and second year, faham faham lah why jarang hang out kan, but during third to fifth year, I didn't go out much due to unstable emotion + stress. Sorry. @.@

Ada lagi yang saya mau thanks ni: Thanks for providing me meggi time saya kelaparan tengah malam and thanks for the non-putus supply of running man at UMS (Skrg teda suda T.T).

Good luck for the next chapter of our life and you must come to my wedding k! (Tapi jangan risau, bukan saya yg first kahwin ni, antara kamu 3 tu, jangan lupa honeymoon trip ah) hehe.Dan jangan lupa jemput saya pigi your wedding juga. (OK! Habis pasal kahwin)

17 years is not a short time. You are a part of my life. Although I didn't express it, you are also one of my greatest friend in this whole wide world. *Hug*  I never wanna say goodbye to you, it's better to say it in chinese = 再见. Let us meet again in the future. :)

ps: *After induction and convocation baca lagi ni post ah. Baru tu last paragraph bermakna. ;)

As childhood friends, we grew up together,
Swearing to be friends forever and ever.
Sometimes we would argue and fight,
other times we would laugh and stay up all night.

We went from playing with games and toys,
To talking and dreaming about different boys.
My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide,
Never having anything to hide.

Friends we do remain,
Things changing, and things staying the same.
To each other we still listen and share,
About each other, we will always care.
Mindy Carpenter

"A friend is someone who know all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard


It's the end of le student life. 
Final exam was over for like 2 weeks ago and I moved all my possessions back home. 

I had 3 moving trips to transfer all my stuff from hostel back home. Why 3 trips you might say, because the mover a.k.a my brother only drives a Myvi and the stuff accumulated during the 5 years period was seriously a lot, so it's not possible for us to move back everything in one sole trip. 

And till now I still have sore muscle pain over le shoulder resulted from lifting the book racks and dino-books up and down the stairs. *Exhausting* I never wanna move again in near future. @.@
The highlight of this post would be this! My simple study/working/reading corner. Thanks to le weakut, I have 2 book racks now. One for my novels and the other one for my text books. 
The photos of my lovely friends. To remind me that I am a lucky person for having these lovely people.

And another one.
 Oops. And this stolen poster from school also become one of my room's deco. ;p

Just a simple post for being too free.. ;p

Wednesday, 15 May 2013

A letter to a friend I

A letter to a friend is dedicated to Ms Firah & Ms Nurul that went back to Peninsular after all these years. Here to you "a letter to a friend I".

"Each friend represent a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born" - Anais Nin

Dear Firah,

It's been 3 days since we last see each other, how are you? ;p By the time you're reading this, you're back to your hometown, far away from us here at Sabah. But, though we are separated by the wide sea, I hope that you won't forget your Sabahan Buddies and all our precious memories here.

Do you still remember? We started off as roomate, then team mate, then group mates for 2 years. And our friendship's bond grew on each passing day, we are (ARE not WERE, cos still is ;p) super close though we were not back then when we were still roomate. Hee.

Dear friend, I never tell you this before. Throughout this 5 years, you have been my greatest friend. You are the friend that stick with your friend when they needed you and you are fun to be around with. You are the most understanding person that I know and talking with you will be something that I'll miss in near future. I love you Firah! as a friend ;p

I thought of this moment before, the moment of us parting and continue with our respective journey on our own different ways. But, I never imagine that it would feel this weird without you on near vicinity as you always were. And the thought of never seeing you again in the future is scary. I am not good in keeping contact with my friends and I hope that we won't lose contact, cos I never wanna lose you as a friend.
Found this poem on the net the other day...

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take aways my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had
Laughing 'til out faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we're insane -if they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks again for being such a good friend
And being here with me though it all.
Rachel Bill

Let's travel together in the future and don't you forget to invite me for your wedding k. ;p

ps: Sorry for this jiwang post.. see you during kursus induction. ;p

"The best mirror is an old friend" - George Herbert

Sunday, 12 May 2013

Book Reviews: Playing with the grown ups by Sophie Dahl

"One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes" - Antoine de Saint Exupery, The little prince
The story started with a phone call. The call that needed Kitty to go back to England as something happened to their mother. On her journey back home, rivers of memories flooded through her mind. The memory of her mother and her life.

The story was about Kitty's life and mainly about a daughter who adore her mother above everything else in the world. Kitty was born without a father, her mother had an affair with a married man and gave birth to her. Her mother was a painter and they live a simple life in the countryside with her bestemama and bestepapa. When she was 8 years old, her mother had another man in her life and given birth to a twin. However, the relationship only lasted for some time before the guy left them again.

Their peaceful life in the countryside abruptly changed when her mother had a sudden attraction toward a Hindi's teaching headed by a man named Swami-Ji. Their life course changes periodically according to Swami-Ji's forecast.

Kitty went through hardships in her boarding school and had a glamorous life along side her mother afterward. Turned out, her mother were not well and while her mother were getting proper treatment at the hospital, she and her younger brother and sister were taken care by their grandparent back at the countryside.

At the last chapter, the condition of her mother after they went back to the countryside were not mentioned, and I thought that the call mentioned earlier was about the death of her mother, that's why Kitty rushed back to her mother's side. But I was wrong as she was pretty much alive when Kitty reached England.

At last, Kitty get to meet her mother again and she get to hear the long awaited apology from her mother.

The story is mainly about how Kitty feels as she grows up with her mother as her idol and role model. Trying to become just like her mother, she dressed way too elegantly for her school and as expected, a lot of people thought that she was eccentric and she does not have a big circle of friends. Her feeling were described in the story and although she adore her mother very much, she was soon tired of the attention given on her mother and the drug problem that her mother has. Kitty doesn't grown in a normal family as others did but at the present, she is married and living a normal life with her husband.


Monday, 6 May 2013


"Whenever you read a good book, somewhere in the world a door opens to allow in more light" - Vera Nazarian

The 5 years books' collection.
"Always read something that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it" - P.J. O'Rourke

My Beautiful Creature's series <3 Lovey<3
"I think of life as a good book. The further you get into it, the more it begins to make sense" - Harold Kushner

Little Black Dress series
"If one cannot enjoy a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all" - Oscar Wilde

Mitch Albom and Jodi Picoult
"Books support us in our solitude and keep us from being a burden to ourselves" - Jeremy Collier

Judy Blume <3
And others. And many more to come in the future. <3

"A book is a fragile creature, it suffers the wear of time, it fears rodents, the element s and clumsy hands. So the librarian protects the books not only from mankind and also against nature and devotes his life to this war with forces of oblivion" - Umberto Eco

Sunday, 5 May 2013

Grateful much.

"If the only prayer you said was thank you, that would be enough" - Meister Eckhart

Holla lovely folks.

Back then, I prayed a lot to the God, and I always tells Him how grateful am I that He has chosen to walk with me since I was 14 years old till the present.Why 14 years old you might ask. Even though I had been baptized as a Catholic since I was young, I had not been an active church-goer until I was fourteen, and it was the same year that I received my first holy communion. He had been my loyal companion since then and I had no trouble in finding my ways until now. 
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And nowadays,
 I distanced myself from Him and seldom talks to Him as I used to back then. The hardship that I faced in my university life made me feels like I'm walking alone, without Him by my side. 
And I stopped talking to him. I stop visiting His holy church. *Yeap, I was that kinda worst person*

But, without me knowing,
He never abandoned me, He was always there. Looking out for me, guide my through my hardship. 
It never occur to me that life could be much harder if He weren't there.
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And now, I want to thank Him even more for guiding me through the hardship and guide me to the right path, especially in my studies. 
Thanks God. I won't made it without You.

You knows that I dream of these days and you made my wishes come true. :)
God has guide me through and I passed my exam. I am no longer a student. I am a D now. :)

"We must find time to stop and thank the people who make a difference in our lives" - John F. Kennedy

Thursday, 2 May 2013

Hey you. :)

Holla lovely folks..
It's been awhile isn't it.

Final exam officially ended today and the result will be due tomorrow.

I do not know whether I did my best during the 2 weeks exam's times and I do not expect much of my exam result. But I do hope that I'll pass the exam and become a good D.

The past weeks have been hectic with the revision of the mountain high of notes that need to be covered for the big exam. Why won't it be when we needed to cover the subjects that we learned a few years back and the one that we haven't seen in just a couple of weeks time.

It has been one of the most stressful moment in my life and it feels great to finally be able to let go of the 'student' status of my life and move on to the future. *If I pass my exam*
Am still blurred from the lack of sleep right now and I'll blog again soon after the exam result is out. 
Ciao for now. 

See you tomorrow maybe. ;)