" All negativity is an illusion created by the limited mind to protect and defend itself."
~ Ambika Wauters
Although its only been a few days since my last post, I feels as if I haven't blog for months. ;p
So what's new in my world?
I'm still the same old me, struggling to survive in this harsh world. ;p (Not as bad as it sound lah actually) Hehe
I've been having turmoil of emotion for the last few days. Blame it on the hormones. Its one of those days when the time of the month is due and all my buried, deep negative symptoms will resurface.
Why estrogen and progesteron, why?? Y U come on each and every month of a woman's life.. ;p
I really dread this time of the month. Being a quiet girl in the group, I will be extra quiet on one of these days. It's my defense mechanism to suppress my evil self from resurface. Or else, I will easily get annoyed and irritated by some minor things that usually won't bug me at all. Duh.
I'm Okay with that matter tho, as long as I'm quiet and no one says anything silly within my ear shot, you won't see the worst of me. But, there is this one other symptom, which is seriously depressing, and I wish I have control to. Yeah, I'll OVER THINK, OVER ANALYZE things and be depress on things that I'm not even suppose to think of.
Gosh. Gosh. The thing that I hate the most is to Over Think.
And I will start to question my existence in this world and get a huge doubt on my chosen life's path. Feels that I could not hold on anymore and that I am the worse of all mankind.
See! Much negativity right?! Nasib baik I have awareness to my own condition or else I could be diagnose with one of those major depression disorder. Wuwuwu. Please lah mind, don't torture me. I don't like much negativity. I don't like you. Stop pushing me down to my feet. Go go away please.
Dear folks, sorry for this much negativity post. For the girlsssss,
mind to share your much hated symptom of those time of the month? ;p
Apparently not well Gee. See you on a better day folks. Ciao.
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and some absurdities no doubt crept in, forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day, you shall begin it well and serenely.."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson