Am am am me~

I'm here again! but devoid from last week's negativity. Hee~
Its exam week and we just went through the vivas for the past few days. Theory exam is on coming friday!
We were scheduled to have it earlier, but due to some inevitable reason, it was extended to the end of the week. *sigh* So, while the others are cheering for the end of their papers, we were sitting around burying ourselves in the mountain high notes. *sigh again.

But! on the positive side, 3 more days till my next paper, so, I'm going to push the notes aside just for this evening. Hee~

So, Whats up with me these days?

Am going for an academic + leisure trip at Indonesia this Sunday. It'll be my first time going somewhere outside of Malaysia, and the feeling is indescribable. But I do sure that I'll be forced to come out of my comfort zone when I'm there. And hopefully everything will turn out fine and we'll have a good time. *excited*

Am in the Dean List! Yeay!.. Its my first time getting listed for it after 4 years enrollment in the school. So, my confidence boost up a little bit, but the uneasiness was still there. Cause the confidence was still not entirely there, and I still cant foresee my future being a good Dr. *Sigh again

Am anticipating more exciting things to happen in Gee's life. :)

Gee <3

I wish I am Nothing

I never wish for things to end this way.
Everything that I believe in came tumbling down.
I don't know what should I believe in anymore.

For once, I think I'm one of the least people that really digest your daily boasting.
I'm one of the least people that inspired by your story.
I even had the stupid thought to take that stupid specialty that you so very proud of.
But.
You really arrogant! Stupid!

I regret the time and effort that I'd wasted doing you Qs. I regret that I spent time to do your stupid assignment. Stupid me for doing all that when stupid you were stupid enough to under appreciate me.

You and that stupid eye of yours. Same as all the other trolls, only look up at the chinese and top student, and despise all of this lowly student. Why dont you stop comparing and stomp on people's dream.

Today is the day when I break down. After so long. Today is the first time for this year that I broke down and wish that I'm different.

HUMILIATION was smack right through my face today. Humiliation. Humiliated like never before.

And I started to look back on my life.
Why do this kind of thing happen to me. If I'm going to be a Dr, I should be enjoying it right? I'll be doing it for my wholelife bah. But... Its the opposite. I'm not enjoying it. I cant see my future being it. I wish I'm sick and wont live long lagi, so that I wont have to go through all this.

Drowning~

Life like that, drown in the sea of notes.
Lost in the world of ENT, Opthalmology and anesthesiology.
Awaiting the war of the 3 topics.
And only one word to describe it all. Stressful!
grr~

Gee <3

Life like that

Life is the biggest gift that God has ever presented to us.

We are given a life, with loads of path to choose from.

There is always the bright path, the gloomy path, and also the full of obstacles path. 

And we were given the right, to choose which one of 'em we want to go for. 

And the path that we get unto is a never ending one. And a totally mysterious one. 

You may think you have taken a bright and easy path, but things wont go as easy as it may seem and you get tested along your way through your chosen path.

Likewise, just because you chosen a dull path, doesn't mean that you will have a dull life for the rest of your life. 

Wherever you are. Whatever situation you are in. Just remember, that every path that God presented to us are a good one. Things happened for a reason and just because you get tested along your way, doesn't mean that it'll stick with you always. 

Just look at the bright side of things, and you'll find the solution for your problem. :)

Gee