A letter to a friend II

A letter to a friend is dedicated to Ms Firah & Ms Nurul that went back to Peninsular after all these years. Here to you "a letter to a friend II".

" 'We'll be friends forever, won't we, Pooh?' asked Piglet. 'Even longer' Pooh answered" - A.A Milne, Winnie the Pooh

Nurul San~

Among all people, you are the one that know me the longest. We were destined to walk together. To walk the life path as a student together. We've known each other for nearly 2 decades now, to be specific, 17 years.

We studied together at the same primary school, and back then we were best friend too. And together with Miss Dg we were a triad made of "telur", "ayam" and "itik". You are one of the earlier person that accepted me as I am and I am really grateful for that. My childhood won't be the same without you and Dyg. *Hug*
Then we separated when you went away for another school during secondary school time. I still remember writing you letter, but being a lazy bum at that time, I broke the chain after one or two letters and we totally lost contact after that. *Sorry* (Kalau ko masi ingat lah, hehe)

Then, our next encounter was during matriculation time. But we haven't talk to each other yet that time. We crossed each other path for once or twice, and I recognised you instantly, but being a shy shy cat,  I didn't tegur you. Lama tidak jumpa kan, takut tidak kena ingat ni. ;p

We truly become reconciled again at UMS. We took the same course and suffered for a few years together. You are cool and sporting gila. You guys are the best neighbor that I ever had. Aisey. Hehe. Sorry for the time that I whined about my love life to you guys. Sorry~ Mesti kamu stress kalau saya datang bilik kamu masa tu tu kan. Hee. Thanks for being a good listener whenever I had trouble and feels like sharing. Thanks for not judging me for my mistakes.

I love hanging out with you guys especially when you are around, why? Cos you are the pe-meriah suasana and also event- planner. So the activities won't be boring without you. But, sorry for not being around for most of the time juga. During first and second year, faham faham lah why jarang hang out kan, but during third to fifth year, I didn't go out much due to unstable emotion + stress. Sorry. @.@

Ada lagi yang saya mau thanks ni: Thanks for providing me meggi time saya kelaparan tengah malam and thanks for the non-putus supply of running man at UMS (Skrg teda suda T.T).

Good luck for the next chapter of our life and you must come to my wedding k! (Tapi jangan risau, bukan saya yg first kahwin ni, antara kamu 3 tu, jangan lupa honeymoon trip ah) hehe.Dan jangan lupa jemput saya pigi your wedding juga. (OK! Habis pasal kahwin)

17 years is not a short time. You are a part of my life. Although I didn't express it, you are also one of my greatest friend in this whole wide world. *Hug*  I never wanna say goodbye to you, it's better to say it in chinese = 再见. Let us meet again in the future. :)

ps: *After induction and convocation baca lagi ni post ah. Baru tu last paragraph bermakna. ;)

As childhood friends, we grew up together,

Swearing to be friends forever and ever.

Sometimes we would argue and fight,

other times we would laugh and stay up all night.

We went from playing with games and toys,

To talking and dreaming about different boys.

My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide,

Never having anything to hide.

Friends we do remain,

Things changing, and things staying the same.

To each other we still listen and share,

About each other, we will always care.

Mindy Carpenter

"A friend is someone who know all about you and still loves you." - Elbert Hubbard

A letter to a friend I

A letter to a friend is dedicated to Ms Firah & Ms Nurul that went back to Peninsular after all these years. Here to you "a letter to a friend I".

"Each friend represent a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born" - Anais Nin

Dear Firah,

It's been 3 days since we last see each other, how are you? ;p By the time you're reading this, you're back to your hometown, far away from us here at Sabah. But, though we are separated by the wide sea, I hope that you won't forget your Sabahan Buddies and all our precious memories here.

Do you still remember? We started off as roomate, then team mate, then group mates for 2 years. And our friendship's bond grew on each passing day, we are (ARE not WERE, cos still is ;p) super close though we were not back then when we were still roomate. Hee.

Dear friend, I never tell you this before. Throughout this 5 years, you have been my greatest friend. You are the friend that stick with your friend when they needed you and you are fun to be around with. You are the most understanding person that I know and talking with you will be something that I'll miss in near future. I love you Firah! as a friend ;p

I thought of this moment before, the moment of us parting and continue with our respective journey on our own different ways. But, I never imagine that it would feel this weird without you on near vicinity as you always were. And the thought of never seeing you again in the future is scary. I am not good in keeping contact with my friends and I hope that we won't lose contact, cos I never wanna lose you as a friend.

Found this poem on the net the other day...

When we first talked to each other

I knew we would always be friends.

Our friendship has kept on growing

And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem

And help dry the tears from my face.

You take aways my sorrow

And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had

Laughing 'til out faces turn blue.

Talking of things only we find funny

People think we're insane -if they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks

For catching me when I fall.

Thanks again for being such a good friend

And being here with me though it all.

Rachel Bill

Let's travel together in the future and don't you forget to invite me for your wedding k. ;p

ps: Sorry for this jiwang post.. see you during kursus induction. ;p

"The best mirror is an old friend" - George Herbert

Me versus my cold heart

Us versus the world.

Us versus the unpredictable future.

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When I was a child, I kept dreaming of the day that I will leave home and stand on my own two feet.

I envy the so called grown up for able to hang out with their friends after school hour,

make their own decision in shopping and also able to spend money on things that they love. 

Those kind of things seems cool at that time. 

So, I vow to be like them too, in the future.

But, seeing how the grown up make life seem so easy makes me feel inadequate.

Cause I do not have the confidence, that I can lead my life same as them.

And as I grow up, life proven to be harsh for me.

and I seriously lose the confidence to be a person. A living person.

Being surrounded by 'good' friend supposed to be good too.

But, their personality was too good for me and I don't know why I kept comparing myself to others and feeling that they was awesome than me scared me. I'm scared that I won't live up to their standard and I started to keep distance from people. Having a weird feeling that I have no right to be one of their friend.

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Few angels come to my life though, and together we grows to be the grown up that I used to envy when I was small.

But those angles, even though they are special enough in my heart, I never kept them to myself.

I let them loose and let them find another angels of their own.

"If you hold on to something too tight, you will suffocate it"

And that's why friends, I never hold on to any of you, cause I don't want to suffocate you with my presence.

And for not holding on to you, 

you turned to another person for a more warmth friendship that mine.

My heart was not made of steel. 

I dislike the weird feeling that I felt after losing any of my friend.

Having those angels leave me after secondary school was not easy too. Out from my comfort zone, I created a wall around me. Wall of insecurity. The wall that I kept on making me a socially awkward person.

And thats why too friends,

I never get attached with any of you.

The wall is still there, and..

I built a gate to my heart, but lose the key in the process of growing up.

Part I of Gee's heart. :)

My lips are sealed for you.

"Curiosity is lying in wait for every secret"

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

I'm a normal human being.

A normal girl.

I love catching up with the latest gossip or rumor about someone that I know.

Did you not?

But, hearing does not always lead to spreading.

Activating my hearing sensation doesn't mean that I will trigger my vocal cord to make out the same noise as the one that I listened to.

If someone chose to pour their heart out for me, sharing their problem and secret with me,

I'll not be an idiot and leaks the story out.

I know what confidentiality is.

Being in this profession, I know when to keep quiet and when to intervene.

Your secret are safe with us.

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You want to keep things in the dark?

Okay. It's ok with me.

But do make a wise decision.

Do come out of the dark and follow the bright path.

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Thing is. Though you want to keep it to yourself, I got my way of knowing it.

I'm a normal human being with an intense curiosity.

But, knowing it does not mean that I'll tell others about it.

My lips are sealed for you.

"Everything is a mystery, ourselves and all things both simple and humble"

~ Giorgio Morandi

Sly Artiste

" Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time"

~ Thomas Merton

Voila!

There is this friend of mine.

She has a great passion for art.

She fancy drawing so much, that you can see her wall was full of overflowing arts.

She is a great artist, and I used to call her Sly artist too.

During secondary school time,

People from another class would come and gather around her to admire her work of art.

Some would even request for a drawing or two.

Lets share some of her awesomeness. 

The artist!

The sketch.

Overflowing arts~

She made me a ring too.

"Art is magic delivered from the lie of being truth" 

~ Theodor Adorno

*Reblog from Old blog (Me as Germaine)*

Foodie Affairs: Anjung Selera, Tg Lipat

"Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience; This is the ideal life."

~Mark Twain

Had a late dinner at Anjung Selera, Tg Lipat Likas last night.

And the ambient was awesome!

I'm so in love with this picture. :)

At Anjung Senja, you can choose to sit indoor or outdoor. 

If you love to catch up with the news or drama being played on the TV, you might as well sit indoor. 

And if you loves to feel the breeze on your face or sit near to the musical splashing wave's sound, woots, outdoor you go. :)

I'm not a traveller nor a food critique who was on my travelling or food quest.

So I'll not ramble much.

Just sharing the few photos captured before the meal.

Holla! Its me! :)

The friends. Mama Kim and Papa Rodt.

The foods. Chicken wings, satays, and keropok lekor.

Yummy!

Our 'large' OJ. :)

"The true secret of happiness lies in taking a genuine interest in all the details of daily life."

~William Morris

Thats all peeps! Adios.